Harmony

  Sunday, February 25, 2024: After reflecting on the relationships I have, each one seems to have some very negative aspects. Some people, in times of trouble, may use me as a scapegoat to save face. Or, fearing comparison with me, they misrepresent me to shield themselves from embarrassment due to their own shortcomings, displaying cowardice in not facing the truth and laziness in not daring to change. Should I maintain these relationships? If I do, I will keep them at a moderate level, avoiding excessive sharing of my thoughts and showcasing only the positive aspects of myself, as they might exploit vulnerabilities to betray me in adversity.   Tuesday, February 27, 2024: Today, I still don't know what to do. I just know that life still holds many interesting things that bring me more joy than work. I will engage in various activities, meet new people, and help others, as well as strive to become a better version of myself.   Thursday, February 29, 2024: A ...

I read a few lines online as follow: Decision Your time is running short now, and the clock is ticking so please do not delay any longer. You should decide right now. Decide whether you will remain negative or you should change to be positive. Negative thinking cannot help you, but positive thinking can. Decide whether you still compare yourself with others or you should focus on yourself. Comparing yourself with others cannot help you, but focusing on yourself will open a new possibility for your life. Decide whether you want to live a life with misery or you should be happy with what you’ve got. Nobody loves misery, so you know the answer already, don’t you? Decide whether you still make excuse, or you will take responsibility. The decision comes down to you. And you alone have to decide. Take responsibility is and always be the best choice. Choose it. Choose to take the responsibility. Decide whether you keep the toxic people in your life or remove their names from your ...

  Saturday, February 3, 2024: "Still can't understand what that person is thinking. Talking to some people in the team, not many agree with me. Personally, I have reasons to protect myself. I can't let myself be hurt. I don't believe I did anything wrong, and above all, I don't feel deserving of that anger." I feel that my mother is a blend of my aunts; she resembles each of them to some extent. I began to perceive many things when I had nieces. As for that person, someone I used to deeply cherish, now I'm not sure anymore. Perhaps things are simple, and they may just speak negatively but have a good heart. However, now I'm not certain. I don't feel their empathy or excessive affection towards me. But I know that person is good, and they are my family. They have done many things that I couldn't. I should appreciate them, but I feel like I am being difficult. Right? It's time to reevaluate relationships. My friends, whom I considered crucial...

Monday, January 1, 2024 Happy new year 2024. Monday, January 15, 2024 After half a month, I don't know what to write because I've been busy with various things such as work at the company and preparing for a visa to go to Taiwan. This year will be a year of countless changes. My younger sister is getting married and won't be staying with me anymore. My girl is on maternity leave for six months, and my team is welcoming a new member. I think next year will be challenging, and I hope I can navigate through it safely. I miss my mom, I miss her deeply. I should live to be worthy of the love she has for me. "I hope wherever Mom is, she will always be happy and surrounded by love." Dad might feel quite jealous because I miss Mom so much, but Dad, I also miss you a lot. It's just that there are many things that make me regret. If only back then, I could have said more to Mom, forgiven her, and been more understanding, it would have been better, you know. Tuesday, Ja...