Harmony

  Saturday, October 28, 2023 Yesterday was a day that left me with many thoughts about the path I'm on and how people perceive me. My current job, the place I work, and the way people see me have all been on my mind. I want a fresh start in my career, but I'm not sure where to begin or what to do. My current job seems somewhat monotonous, but at least I feel I can meet the job requirements to some extent. In reality, I think I could handle other jobs as well, but I would need a lot of guidance from others, and if they are not willing to help, I can't perform the job well. I feel like I'm just going to work every day to earn a paycheck without adding any value to myself. So, should I continue working? It's disheartening to hear what others say about my job. There's a saying I've heard that seems true – if I knew what others said about me when I'm not around, I probably wouldn't be able to talk to people anymore. I will look for a new job before quitti...

  Dear Mom and Dad, It's hard to put into words how much I miss you both, and how often I think about the moments we shared together. Life has continued on without you, but your love and guidance have never left my heart. I am forever grateful for the lessons you taught me and the love you showered upon me. I remember the laughter and the tears, the warmth of your hugs, and the wisdom in your advice. There are so many things I wish I could have shared with you, so many moments I wish you could have been a part of. As I journey through life, I often find myself wondering what you would say or how you would react to certain situations. Your memory remains a source of strength and comfort for me. I know you are always with me because every breath and every cell in my body carries the presence of mom and dad. Please know that you are deeply missed and cherished, and your legacy lives on in the way I live my life. Until we meet again, I will hold you close in my heart and ch...

  This is where I release the negative things within me. "I will be honest with myself, without hiding or forcing myself, and what I write is not meant to criticize anyone. I hope that I can become stronger to find joy in life, which I once thought had no place for me." The people who annoy me keep increasing. I don't understand why, but it seems like whenever people spend some time with me, they just become envious. They always want to bring me down, then pretend to be knowledgeable and refuse to acknowledge my talents. I dislike character X. I often share many stories with this person, but instead of empathizing with me, they always say things that bring me down. This person is also lazy and doesn't engage in physical activity, so when I'm with them, I rarely appear diligent in anything. Mentioning character X makes me feel disgusted again. But I can't change others I dislike, so I can only change myself. Furthermore, everyone has both good and bad aspects...

  This is where I release the negative things within me. "I will be honest with myself, without hiding or forcing myself, and what I write is not meant to criticize anyone. I hope that I can become stronger to find joy in life, which I once thought had no place for me." I want to quit my job. I feel very tired when I have to go to work. Working with the people in my place feels like they drain my energy. I don't know how much progress I can make. I don't have dream and I don't know what I want. I am also afraid that I might get laid off. But going to work without a goal like this is also very unsettling. Some people have approached me and wanted to get to know me, but I can't open up to them. I still cannot improve my weaknesses.  I hope that I can be strong enough to overcome anything and face the challenges that come my ways. From Toir daily notes.